We are quickly approaching Mother’s Day and I find myself reflecting on my own life as a mother.
Sometimes I find myself in moments with my boys and time slows down and the moment is overwhelming.
Maybe it’s a smile, a cry, watching them achieve things their proud of, watching them fail, or just their presence in the room.
It’s often nothing specific…just the moment. A moment I wish could stay forever. That things could always be like that.
Time doesn’t stand still, not for any of us. Things do change. Children do grow up.
As my children have grown I find myself wondering if I did enough. Was I there enough? Did I encourage enough?
Did I plant a the right seeds? Did I water the grass enough?
As mother’s we always find ourselves wondering if we’ve done enough. I am in no way a perfect mother. I know I have failed my children on occasion. I’ve lost my temper. I’ve been impatient, frustrated, and tired at times. We all have.
But now, as of today, I look back and reflect on what I really hope for my two growing boys.
I find myself with these 4 wishes.
- I wish for you to feel loved. Feel it like you’ve never felt anything before. I wish for you to have deep meaningful relationships and you have the confidence to be who you are and you walk this life in love.
- I wish for you to be heard. I wish for you to be heard beyond the words you are speaking. I want you to be heard from your heart.
- I wish for you to be true to yourself. Be authentic. Find your passion in this life and follow it no matter what it takes. Don’t let anyone tell you who you should be or what you should be doing. Live your life. Own it. Chase it. Love it with everything you are.
- I wish for you to make the most of every day. You never know what tomorrow will bring. Don’t worry about tomorrow until the moon sets and the sun rises. Enjoy today.
To my boys Ethan and Avery,
I love you.
I’m proud of you.
Thank you for allowing me to be your mother.
Ethan Bryan ~ August 10, 1994
Avery Grayson ~ March 23, 2002